I must also warn you, this might not make any sense, it is after all a rant, a way of getting out my anger and nothing more. If, after all that, you are still interested in reading what a simple Mexican citizen has to say about his country and how he feels all is going to hell, then, please, continue...
I don´t know how to start this, how to express the anger I´m feeling right now, all I can say is I lost hope in Mexico, I´ll explain myself: I lost hope in living in a country where the rule of law and justice prevails, I lost hope of living in a country where you can actively participate in politics and make a change in your community, I lost hope in myself as a Mexican citizen.
The Ayotzinapa massacre (I´m sure they are dead, sorry) is just the last of a HUGE number of criminal acts which have taken place in Mexico in the last years, criminal acts which could have not happened if not for the compliance and corruption of both the Political/Government and Society as a whole.
While the idea of a Federal Government powerful enough and willing to kill 43 rebellious students because they oppose the current economical powers is quite frightening and a great propaganda tool for those in the political opposition, I feel something even worse is taking place in my country, I feel all the power the Federal Government once had is gone, We live in a country where a mere small city Mayor believes He has enough power to disappear 43 students without having to face justice, a country where local politicians do whatever they want and have their kids meeting with druglords to have a drink(Vallejo´s son, anyone?), a country where anyone can be executed and nothing will happen, where you can have your kid go out and never see him alive again, a country where 72 immigrants are savagely execute and nobody gives a damn because "they were some damn sudacas", a country where people forget this massacres in a matter of weeks, sometimes less. That´s a reason why I lost hope in my country.
I must admit I do not share the Normalistas political views, I even admit I´ve expressed in the past my dislike of their acts, and have called them in several times vandals, I won´t deny that. What I will say is NONE of that makes them deserving of anything close to what happened to them.
Speaking of political views, I feel I got to write about this too, I find it extremely nauseating how many in the Mexican opposition are using this case as a way of hitting their enemies without having any real interest in the Normalistas or their well being.
Right now there is no clean political party in Mexico, while its true that EPN and PRI are those in Federal power, both PAN and the leftist parties have a lot to do with the current situation, even AMLO who some blindingly see as a Mexican savior (forgetting he was part of PRI too and forgetting the ties some of his close associates have had to criminals in the past) has a lot of explaining to do. That´s another reason why I´ve lost faith in my country´s future.
The way I see it Mexico is FUCKED (excuse my words, but that´s the only word I can think of), With a society divided between those with little to no concern to anything else to soccer or their soap operas and a group of "political activists" who act only as fanatics of a Caudillo, I feel Mexico has no hope of changing its ways in this generation.
Many will call me a quitter, a bad Mexican, you name it, but How can I have hope in a country where kids outside of elementary school argue over who´s the baddest cartel, over who is more powerful while listening to corridos on their cellphones with their parents amused for the scene? How can I have hope in a country where there is not a single politician willing to do a REAL cleanup? A country where those who criticize the "mafia del poder" are the same who hang around with Julio Cesar Godoy (Familia Michoacana member turned Federal Deputy by PRD), those who launch political careers like that of Jose Luis Abarca (Iguala´s butcher) or that of Narciso Agundez(former BCS Governor accused of having his campaign paid by Francisco Javier Arellano Felix), a country where politicians like Tomas Yarrington, Fidel Herrera or Humberto Moreira rise to huge power levels, a country where the Arellano Felix brothers partied with PAN´s Tijuana mayor?
How can I have faith in a country where a great man like Dr. Mireles is jailed while several of Tijuana´s criminals I knew had been arreste are already free? How can I have faith when I failed as a citizen by omission?
This is just the tip of the iceberg, excuse me if I don´t make sense with this but I HAD to take it out of me, there are a lot of other reasons why I lost hope in my country which I might add later, right now the anger is too much to keep writing.
As a citizen who loves his country and who truly tried and failed at making a change, all I got to say is I´m sorry Mexico, I failed you miserably as a citizen.